May 2011
1 post
I’ve lost all hope in myself and so has everybody else.
The kid who once had “a whole world of opportunities” is now rejected by them all.
The sad thing is thats it’s all my fault. I did this to myself.
January 2011
7 posts
That awkward moment when the person you don't want...
justcallmemoonman:
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College or the Air Force?
At the beginning of last year I was sure of the Air Force but time progressed and I wondered if it was the right choice. So I thought “what the he’ll I’ll just apply to college and see where I go from there.” So I did but now I’m confused more than ever.
I got accepted into a couple schools and surprisingly enough I feel pretty apathetic...
Those who know do not talk.
Those who talk do not know.
Stop talking,
meditate in silence,
blunt your sharpness,
release your worries,
harmonize your inner light,
and become one with the dust.
December 2010
4 posts
The other night while laying in bed feeling like shit I was told by a wise beautiful woman to go outside and scream something. As much as I didn’t want to I did it anyways, this screaming did something I didn’t expect it to do. In a way it let out all I was feeling and keeping inside.
Right now I just want to go to the tallest building in the valley and scream at the top of my lungs
...
I never have been a hateful person nor an aggressive one.
Although i don’t “know” you there’s something inside of me that hates you to the very core. There’s something inside of me that thinks a way that I don’t think. There’s something inside of me that wishes you the most harm possible to a human being.
Of course that’s on the inside, but on the...
November 2010
3 posts
Why can’t I ever do one thing for ME?!?!
Thanks mom.
Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself; I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.
October 2010
4 posts
Why is it that happy couples can never be left...
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Why must there always be someone who attacks them and tries to break them up?
It’s annoying how many times I have seen this.
JUST LEAVE THEM ALONE. They’re happy. What’s so wrong about that?
How is it some people make clearing your mind look and seem so simple? Next to math it is the most complicated thing in the world.
September 2010
4 posts
Day One
Ten different things you want to say to ten different people right now
1. I’m sorry im not the persaon you wish i were.
2. Learn how to behave yourself like a human being!
3. Please don’t turn into the type of person I hate
4. You were an ass hole and I dont blame all those people for hating you.
5. Stop being an attention hogger and sit your ass down.
6. I’m smart but...
Ten Day Challenge
Day One: Ten different things you want to say to ten different people right now. Day Two: Nine things about yourself. Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart. Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot. Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done. Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) Day Seven: Four turn offs. Day Eight: Three turn ons. Day Nine: Two smileys that...
Ups and downs and ups and downs and ups and d…
wait no it’s stayed in the ups and his been ups for about half of a year now.
Life is extremely good great right now and it has been for months. I have pretty much everything figured out. I think I’m one of the few 17 year old guys who can honestly say he knows what he wants to do for the rest of his life. A lot of people are...
I’m sorry tumblr, if you were my pet ASPCA would be on my ass for neglecting you.
My minds been everywhere lately, but not where i want it to be. I cant focus much because it always comes back to me thinking of a certain topic that scares terrifies me. I’ve honestly never been this scared in my life and I’ve never felt any of these emotions all at once. Now more than ever I need...
July 2010
16 posts
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as...
Dear sister,
We have both grown up and have sadly drifted apart due to the fact that you moved away and I’m always doing something when you’re not working. I know the future will soon bring us back together like we were for those few years when we got along. Can’t wait till then.
Love,
Paul
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Dear Grandma,
We never met, I’ve been told that out of all your grandchildren I’d probably be the one who youd have more to talk to about. WE had many of the same interests. I wish i could go back in time 27 years and meet you.
Love,
the grandson you never had.
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Dear Spark Notes,
Thank you for saving my ass on many occasions when i slacked off and didnt do my reading and I had to write an essay.
Love,
Paul
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Dear Ex-Girlfriend,
I dont hate you, I dont wish your death, on the contrary i wish you happiness in whatever it is that you’re doing. I no longer have a need for you in my life, we have completely drifted apart and I’m fine with that. I hope you have a great life kid.
Your Ex-boyfriend,
Paul
Day 6 — A stranger
Dear Stranger,
When is it that you became a stranger? Maybe somewhere along the way we pushed each other away or maybe life just pulled us away. I wish you were no longer a stranger…
Love,
Paul
Day 5 — Your dreams
Dear Dreams,
For once I’d like to have the normal dreams of a 17 year old guy as oppsed to these horrible nightmares that i continuosly have. Whenever I’m in a great mood after having an amazing day i go to sleep and what do you know it all comes crushing down with that one dream….
Dear Dreams,
FUCK YOU!
Hate,
Paul
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Dear Erick,
Up until a year ago or so we didn’t get along well but now i see what I was missing out on. In about a year or so I’ll be leaving, whether it be to the Air Force or College I do not know yet. I just want you to know the secret to not being a complete disappointment to my parents… Be the complete opposite as me. I know you can do it, you are already heading down...
Day 3 — Your parents
Dear Mom,
You once had hope hope that I’d be something great in this world. For that i thank you, but why did that have to change?
Dear Dad,
All you wanted was a son to be proud of, well you still have my brother.
Dear Mom and Dad,
I have disappointed the two of you in millions of ways and for this I’m sorry. I wish I could have been a better son. All i am is one...
Day 2 — Your Crush
Dear Crush,
This is to the absence of a “crush.” I don’t need a crush nor do i have one on anyone. All I need is mi novia.
Love, Paul E. Parra
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Dear Best friend,
Through the years i have gone through many different “best friends,” but since the begining you have been the one that has always been there. We may sometimes annoy the crap out of eachother but we both know that with one phone call we can reach eachother just in case we need help. I may have been forced to grow up with you but as i grew up I saw that you were...
30 Day Letter Project
Day 1 — Your Best Friend Day 2 — Your Crush Day 3 — Your parents Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative) Day 5 — Your dreams Day 6 — A stranger Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to Day 12 — The...
“Don’t count the days, make the days count.” - Muhammad Ali”
te doy las gracias
After reading all of these, seeing that they are posted one after another you might think im a lunatic who switches from emotion to emotion but this isn’t the case, I just havent writtne in a whilke and it’s all flowing out.
But now that thats out of the way it’s time to get to get top the point.
I want to thank someone for all that they’ve done for me. Over the past...
a simple request.
Can you please leave me the fuck alone?
Is that so hard?? No one wants you around!
You completely disgust me. The mere sight of you brings so much hate into my my heart that i can’t bear it.
You’ve been coming around a lot and this explains a lot of my abnormal behaviors.
I want to apololgize to all who have been affected by these behaviors of mine.
But who the fuck is gonna...
A little overdue...
Things have changed so damn much!
People you once thought you knew are now complete strangers,
Your surroundings are completely changing, along with the way you think.
Its true that nothing ever stays the same and before I would have looked back and miss the way things were but now I’m learning to look back and instead of missing it I laugh at how stupid i was along with other people.
I...
April 2010
3 posts
Listen
It's about time
It’s about time I write something on here after a long time of putting it off…
Earlier I was asked, “and what makes me different?” I am horrible with putting things into words but giving it more and more thought I believe to have an answer.
I love how we can be the worlds biggest dorks together
I love how we can do anything or nothing for that matter
I love how you...
March 2010
5 posts
:)
I have made a decision!
From now one i will be an ass hole to eveyone :)
You’re gonna have to earn me being nice to you as oppsed to me being nice to you right away ;p
People take advantage of it so I’m changing ;p
So say goodbye to Nice Paul From now on im Jerk Paul lol
February 2010
12 posts
:/
And the sad thing is, this is just the begining…
:/
